180 Degree Turn

Posted to Facebook October 23rd.
In many ways LOP can feel like a 180 degree turn from what I have observed as 'normal' or what I have tried to force myself to believe.  Words to describe this difference came to me the other day when I said to a friend, "It's the difference between my life driving me and me driving my life ."  In one I believe that the world outside of me dictates my life, and in the other I believe that I get to choose what I like best.

'My life driving me' may at first seem easier because I am leaving the decisions and processes up to someone else.  However, eventually it can start to feel like obligation, necessity, a heavy weight, like I am trying to push and control things into place.  Things can feel required of me, like I need to hurry, abide by a list of shoulds, or rush through my days.  At one end of the 'my life driving me' spectrum I may feel immense boredom, mediocrity, monotony, and caught in a cycle of constant maintenance.  At the other end I feel exhaustion, overwhelment, or suffocation.

'Me driving my life' feels like curiosity, enthusiasm, and well-being; it feels easy, natural, energizing, exciting, creative, inspiring, adventurous and fun.  Me driving my life has a natural flow, and even though I may have moments of questioning if others will accept it, there is a knowing that this is the path I want to explore.

LOP can at times appear to be impossible, or incorrect, because it is the opposite of what we have experienced.   It may seem the whole world would have to change to make it a reality, but it doesn't.  The 180 degree turn happens as I come to remember the fun of being in the driver's seat.

"K-PAX"

Posted to Facebook October 17th.

The Movie "K-PAX"

Directed by Iain Softley

Adapted from the novel by Gene Brewer

After Prot informs the psychiatrist that they have no laws, and no lawyers on his planet . . .

Psychiatrist:  "Well, how do you know right from wrong?"

Prot:  "Every being in the Universe knows right from wrong."