Monday 13 February 2012

This Moment Is Enough

Posted to FaceBook Feb. 15th
A week ago my husband cooked up a lunch for us.  Because of our work schedules, we rarely do this, which made it special.  I was still in my PJs and housecoat after a very fulfilling morning in my office.  The sun was pouring into our dinning room where we sat discussing a book I was currently reading.  As we dined I filled with immense appreciation for that moment, and the words gently whispered in my head, "this is enough."

I know that the word 'enough' is often used in the context that something is 'meagerly sufficient to get by.'  However, I am using it to mean that 'nothing needs to be different for me to feel like my cup 'runneth' over.'

That experience of lunch being enough, did not mean that I didn't ever want to move on from the lunch, or get out of my PJs, or discuss a different topic.  It didn't mean that joy is always about having someone to cook for me, or having the sun shining.  It meant that in that moment I was allowing myself to fully appreciate this combination of experiences, I was fully recognizing its beauty.  I was not in the future, or the past, I was not feeling like I should be rushing, or doing something more.  I was completely at peace, and enjoying, the way that moment was -- that moment was soooo enough!

Beliefs that Support Me

Posted to FaceBook Feb. 13
Here's another thought about the first ingredient in LOP -- beliefs.  One morning this past weekend I banged up against my belief that "sleeping in, on my days working at home, is what makes great days working at home."  The way I banged up against it is I didn't sleep in past the time I get up when I am working outside of my home.  Not fulfilling that belief created a rocky, not so connected start to my day.

This is similar to the, "I need seven hours of sleep each night" belief.  These feel great unless I don't fulfil them, and then I can feel quite frustrated.  These beliefs can be nice guidelines for my life, however, when I have beliefs that dictate my life, and I don't fulfil them, they end up being more of a disconnecting than a connecting with who I really am (WIRA) experience -- and that's not great support.

So, when I bang up against one of these beliefs, I can either change, rearrange, force my life to fulfil the belief, or I can change the belief.  For instance, at first I tried to go back to sleep so I could fulfil my "sleeping in on days at home is how I create a great day at home" belief.  That didn't work.  I then tried reading, thinking I would for sure drift off back to sleep . . . an hour later, still reading.  I get up, yes I am frustrated at this point, because now I am not going to have a great day at home.  Then I thought, "if I am awake and I didn't fall back asleep after an hour of reading, it must be because, for now, I am done sleeping."  That made so much more sense, and it felt better.  I cannot say that it is now my belief (the thought I automatically think over and over again), but it was a step in the right direction.

With the busier schedule I have had the last month, I have banged up against a few beliefs that do not support a busier schedule, like:  I need "X" amount of quiet time to remain connected with WIRA; I only have a certain amount of energy to spend each day; I have to limit certain things in my life to remain connected with WIRA; and inspiration/listening to WIRA can only happen in the quiet moments.

Yes, all of these thoughts and beliefs may have been an integral part for me learning how to LOP, and be connected with WIRA, and yes they are fine guidelines.  However, if I am really LOP in each moment, if I am listening to my guidance, if I am focusing on that which is before me and completely present in that moment, and I am not getting caught up in the exhausting resistance of unfulfilled beliefs, I will be remembering and believing and expressing WIRA -- with, or without, fulfilling a certain belief. 

But of course, that's only my belief.