Putting It Off

Posted to FaceBook Mar. 19th.
My depression taught me that we all want to feel good.  Most of us know this, whether it is conscious or unconscious, and move forward in our life trying to figure out what those things are that are going to make us feel good.  But trying to figure out the 'what' of feeling good is actually a form of procrastination, is the long way around, is putting off what I really want -- which is just to feel good.

There are stories of fact (Victor Frankl, a prisoner of the Nazi concentration camps), and fiction (Pollyanna, a girl who overcame the death of her parents and the abuse of her new guardian) that share with us that we no longer need to wait for things to be a certain way for us to feel good. 

LOP is not about enduring one's terrible circumstances and just trying to be happy with being miserable.  LOP is about knowing that we no longer need to deny our joy or peace or freedom or love until our experience dictates it.  We no longer need to hold ourselves captive to whatever misery we think our current circumstances require.  We no longer need to justify our happiness through our results, or our in this moment reality.  We no longer need to put off what we are really looking for, which is to feel good, because we think it comes from outside of us. 

LOP is knowing that I create my good feeling in life, and I don't need to put if off any longer.