I Want What I Want

I have noticed how the creative geniuses that we are can sometimes get caught up in not allowing ourselves to want what we want, but still try and find ways to create it.  Meaning, whether we admit to our desires or not, they are very powerful forces in our lives, and we are most likely still going to keep trying to find a way to make them happen. 

Now, I can either create my desires easily and effortlessly by being honest with myself and going straight to what I really want, or I can take a long road around by working hard, worrying, doing things that are not who I really am (WIRA), and pretending my desires are just like everyone else's, and just hope that I will get there someday when I retire.

We have a variety of ways of not being honest with ourselves about what we want.  We have excuses for not allowing ourselves to want something (that's not worth the money, I am too busy, I'll do it when I get everything else taken care of), or we justify doing something by pointing out that something bad will happen if we don't (I have to go golfing or the guys will be mad at me), or we can pretend we are doing something for someone else's sake (I'll go out for lunch with my friends so you can get some work done at home).

Or sometimes we try and talk ourselves out of what we want with logic (it is not right, it is not fair, it is not how I was brought up, it is not what my family wants, I don't have enough education, I haven't worked hard enough for it, I can't make a living from that, or I don't know HOW to do that).

And, we may tell ourselves stories (consciously or unconsciously) for protection.  If I say I want things that are not my true desires, and I don't admit what I really desire, I protect myself from 'failing' and the pain that would accompany that.

But what I have realized is that when I justify, and use excuses, it is me who is not believing in me, and how will anyone else believe if I don't?  What I have learned from all the biographies I have read and watched is that in the beginning, most often, our true desires are anything but logical.  And most spectacularly, I now know, we can not fail at our true hearts desires, at being who we really are, we can only deny ourselves of it.

LOP is allowing ourselves to want what we want.