Why I LOP

Posted to Facebook February 8th, 2023

The reason I go on and on about practicing LOP is because it saved my life.  I know that sounds incredibly dramatic, but that is how it feels.  Forty some years ago I felt I was suffocating to death because, as I now understand it, I had suppressed who I really was so deeply I couldn't breath.  I now see how if we sup-press who we really are (WWRA) long enough, we become de-pressed.

For many years I hid this whole story because it seemed that what was real for me was not believable for anyone else.  At first I didn't even think it was real because I was believing others more than me.  Then I started seeing pieces of a puzzle that felt real for me.  I felt desires that I knew were truly mine, that I had kept hidden away.  I saw pieces of who I really was.  But I was still too worried people would just brush it off as more of that stuff from that girl who had "problems".  

After a lot of time, a lot of questions, a lot of learning, a lot of practice, and a lot of baby steps in trusting ME, I find myself spending more and more time on this thing I call the upward spiral.  And for anyone who experiences deep downward spirals I wish I could just wrap you up in a dosage of the upward spiral so that you too could know what is possible, however, I know that's not the way it works, and it would rob you of the exact thing you are looking for  -- WYRA.  So instead, here I stand, doing my best to remember WIRA, so that when I am with you I can see WYRA, which I hope will help you believe in WYRA, and then when you are with others you will be able to see WTRA . . . and so on.  

Practicing the upward spiral is full of ups and downs, questions and answers, frustrations and "Ahhas." I speak of it not because I have it all figured out, but instead so that these kinds of conversations can be more common.  I know we have all had snippets of the beauty that is possible, but at times they can be challenging to hang on to.  And even though this is completely an inside job, I know it is easier to believe in the upward spiral when there are those outside of us that believe too.

LOP, because nothing less will do.