I was startled. It was the last thing I had expected, which made it even more believable. It was one of those moments that you can point to and say, "That is when things changed. This is when I started to see things differently." This was a beginning, although, in that moment, all I was experiencing was astonishment.
It was the end of the last century, and I had been journeying for a while. I had read the books, I had taken the classes, even lead a number of them. I had been doing a morning meditation for years, which I called connecting. I knew I was looking for something; I had been my whole life. Things had just never seemed quite right. The answers most others were satisfied with were unfulfilling to me. I couldn't bring myself to be happy with what others desired. I felt alone at times, I felt weird at others, and yes, periodically, I even felt better than, maybe from a place of self preservation more than anything else. There had just always been this feeling, this knowing, that there was more here for me than what I had been introduced to, and I had started to search at a very early age with very mixed results. So, by no means was the experience this morning out of the blue. There had been asking for decades. And yet still I was surprised.
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